I am separated from my husband of 38 almost 39 years. I have four children two boys and two girls both of my son have committed suicide in the last my youngest in 2013 and my oldest son in May of 2017. Those were two of the worst days of my life except that you never ever get over both of my sons have four children of peace my youngest daughter is raising my youngest son's for children and she has two children of her own my first daughter my oldest son's first wife is raising his oldest three children and his in-laws are raising his youngest son. I live in a tiny house in my youngest daughter's yard and I am close to all the three of my grandchildren I have 12 grandchildren Outlet each one of them dearly one of my granddaughters is in heaven she didn't live very long after she was born but I have 11 grandchildren living two of them are girls and the other night or boys and that's the extent of my life I love Jesus with all my heart I've been a Christian since I was in the first grade I was saved in Vacation Bible School substrate for him many times but I've always come back to him I know that without him I would I'd be dead I owe everything in my life to him if it wasn't for him I would have given up a long time ago I'm so grateful to him for saving my life and for holding me tight and always being here for me and I just give him the honor and glory for everything in my life